After the last post of mine, which got into some strange waters, I've had a hard time getting back to writing in here. I thought, however, that perhaps I should update a bit more about my fanfic. Especially the one I'm currently editing.
One of the things you learn as a writer is that you never know your characters quite as well as you think...or perhaps you know them too much. Sometimes you write and they end up being somehow different than the people you'd thought them to be. That's the case with Billy. Billy's really only half my character. He's from the Power Rangers so his personality and traits are largely out of my region to change, they're already set. Yet every PR writer has their own version of Billy, each slightly different from the other. As I have mine.
Mine seems to be much more more sorrowful that I had originally pictured him, someone who has been treated harshly by life in some ways and has not always had the resilience of personality to ride out the waves caused in his life. He has been abandoned and abandoned again, by love, friendship, life. And the strange thing is, I knew it. for the most part, my stories take place entirely within the events of canon, with only one or two that concern him taking place after an event I myself contrived. But it is interesting that, despite knowing his history, I did not understand his sorrow until I started writing him. Maybe not even until now, when I'm editing one of his stories. When I write, I'm so caught up in the characters and what they think and feel, there's often no room for what I feel. So, despite writing the sad story back in november, it's only now when I go back to read and edit it that I find myself with tears in my eyes and sorrow in my heart for this quiet blue ranger who turned out to be in much more pain than I had known before.
This discovery, it's something that maybe only another writer can understand but i hope I'm explaining it somewhat well for the non writers.
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