I'm a little worried.

I'm really new to this whole poly thing. I expected to have some problems with it eventually. I expected I might get jealous or insecure. I expected that I might say or do something really awkward and hurtful and mess things up. I worried that I might not get along with the other girl or that I might end up comparing our relationships too much. None of the things I worried about have happened.

Instead, it's the other girl that seems to be having the issues. And this just...seems wrong. It's wrong that she's the insecure one, that she's so worried about possibly messing things up. It's wrong that she's getting left out. And I really just want to fix it but am not sure how. It's easy enough to say, oh you should do this and that, but I know that things don't work that way.

I tried to make things better today and I'm scared I made them worse instead. I tried to reassure her that she was cared for and it was just a conflict of styles that had brought her to the point of feeling left out. Now I'm worried because I think the guy took what I said to her badly for some reason.

I'm just...I'm not used to NOT fixing things. And I don't understand how I can feel like my own relationship is going so well and hers seems to be so on the rocks. How can we be dealing with the same guy and be getting such different results? This is one of the days I wish someone really was reading this blog. I could use someone to talk to. Or just to know someone is out there.